Entry One
Loosing YourSelf
Losing yourSelf, take off the mask.
In relationships, when did we really know ourSelves?
What are we looking for?
What are we missing?
Relationships can illuminate masks we’ve worn for years.
These ‘masks’ we wear can come across as... ‘Don’t show fear, sadness, anger, etc.’
Maybe we feel like we need to ‘pretend’ everything is hunky dory.
Take off the mask of stuffing down feelings and instead choose to be an authentic you...what’s UNDER the mask is what matters...what’s UNDER the reaction…
It is a process of removing layers...the true Self, never needs to be ‘changed’.
Sometimes we are dealing with the mask becoming so comfortable we even forget we are wearing them...we forget who is under the mask. It’s like seeing a happy person with no emotion.
It’s also important to understand that happiness is not a ‘consistent’ state...that would also be a mask as a sort of cover-up for not feeling other emotions. Part of the true Self, the Human Experience is having many feelings and emotions. For example, We CAN be content and filled with gratitude.
Another part of being authentic to yourSelf would be to allow a level of falling apart. We honestly need to not have it all together.
If these ‘old identities’ these layers of masks are not getting us where we want to go it is time to take on a new strategy and nix the pretending that we are okay, the denying of our truths and the fear of our emotions...let it all fall.
Loosing ourSelves can also resurface as holding anger at others because we need to release and find an exit route that is not through our own shit…..this will likely translate into self-hatred.
Instead, go into the sadness, grief, anger....give yourSelf permission to be REAL, because this is how we find ourSelves.
Truly, GREAT to feel ‘depressed’ because at least you were able to step out of a pattern to be aware that ‘hey, I am not happy, I am depressed.’
The new energy cannot enter into our field until we have cleared out the old energy. So above all, be honest with yourSelf.
“I give mySelf permission to feel.”
When we feel lost we miss the familiar. We never need to look externally. We have EVERYTHING we need inside of us.
This process is often such a deconstruction of what we thought love and belonging looked like.
So start taking off the mask(s), start realizing the person we’ve been isn’t really the person we are deep down.
There is a grieving process and massive uncertainty.
We literally can create co-dependence with our ‘masks’....the stories, identities we believe because we do not know how to meet/deal with our own needs.
Yes, knowing how to have our genuine needs met is SelfLove.
Not knowing who we want to be...but maybe focusing on who we want to feel like? Make that person the youngest version of yourSelf that your can remember, allow yourself to be that child again and get ready to experience the up-leveling.
Divinely Guided,
<3
Hannah